Saturday, January 31, 2009
If my blog isn't updated that much in February, it is because it is a hard month for me. In ten days, I reach my two years of being sick. I am not sure how to feel about this, because it was completely unexpected. I went to bed and couldn't get up the next. My doctors at that point though it was something simple, but it turned out to be complex. So complex that I don't really understand it yet. I only know that it is forever something that I will have to deal with. My family, friends, and books are what has made it bearable and I am thankful for all those things.
Lately, it has also been harder, because in November my doctors found that my first infection is still there. Meaning that I will be on antibiotics for at least six months and they might have to do surgery in order to see what is wrong with the muscle and joint in my hip area, and why it hasn't healed yet.
Honestly, dealing with this... it is like a part of myself has died. The child-like shy girl of ages ago. So here is some random stuff.
Photo to the Right: taken March of 2007, right after I got my drain off. I couldn't shower for 15 days. I learned to love Baby wipes in that time. My hair is also really thin, compared to my normal hair.
Last book read before Sick: Lets Get Lost by Sarra Manning, I try to read it every year though it hurts in a way.
I think that is enough of memory lane for me, before I cry too much. This will also be an explanation of bitchiness, sadness, and other emotions in coming weeks.
Take Care, Sarah.